The Cleansing Phase

The cleansing phase......I think I'm in it. Doing away with the old and finding the new me. I've started off with getting rid of some of my books. And for those you that know me...know that is difficult for me to do. I'm getting rid of things that remind me everday of a life I once had. Books on how to choose the sex of your baby.....how to fix your marriage..... These are just a few things I'm cleansing myself of. Every day I walk into my apartment and I see these two angels jumping up at me, begging me to love on them. Now...I can't cleanse myself of the dogs but they were James and I's dogs - I know they miss him. As I take my attention away from the girls, surrounding me are things that completed our lives together and lately it's been tearing away at me. It can't be healthy to try and go to sleep in the same bed we use to sleep in.......and the banana couch....he was not a fan but still let me keep it in the house. That's what I think when I look at that couch. I have to get rid of it.

I am unsure of what other ways to deal with this. I just can't help the thoughts that go through my head. It's just weird. Plain and simple.