Some of the most beautiful words ever written.........

I like the feel of your name on my lips
And I like the sound of your sweet gentle kiss
The way that your fingers run through my hair
And how your scent lingers even when your not there

And I like the way your eyes dance when you laugh
And how you enjoy your two hour bath
And how you convinced me to dance in the rain
With everyone watching like we were insane

But I love the way you love me
Strong and wild
Slow and easy
Heart and soul
So completely
I love the way you love me

I like to imitate old Jerry Lee
And watch you roll your eyes when I'm slightly off key
And I like the innocent way that you cry
At sappy old movies you've seen hundreds of times

But I love the way you love me
Strong and wild
Slow and easy
Heart and soul
So completely
I love the way you love me

And I could list a million things
I love to like about you
But they all come down to one reason
I could never live without you

I love the way you love me
Strong and wild
Slow and easy
Heart and soul
So completely
I love the way you love me
Oh baby I love the way you love me

By.....John Michael Montgomery

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This is such an old song but the words are still so beautiful and powerful to me!!!! I love it. It's such a sensual song that makes you want to feel love like this so badly! To feel someone's name rolling off your tongue and feeling it on your lips. The words in this song open up every single one of your senses and makes it beautiful. I can read through this song and portions of it remind me of things. This song reminds me of a young love.....I wish all love was like that today. I can remember when ones scent would linger....or I could smell it just in passing by.......Memories. They have to be one of the greatest things that we have that cannot be taken away.

I imagine myself lying in a huge field of green green grass with a perfect blue sky......and little buttercup flowers all around. This song is playing.......and I can actually feel everything. From my lips to my hair being playing with......sweet sounds of precious kisses and a scent that lingers forever.

My dance instructor smiles a lot.....but when he really smiles....a REAL one.....where he is holding back a laugh....howevery, it always comes out, well,........his eyes dance when he laughs. They literally dance. And every time he does it, I become so engaged with it. It's contagious.

And we have all had those moments of passion where afterwards we thought "I can't believe I just DID THAT!!!! Like he's talking about being convinced into dancing in the rain!!!!! I can almost feel the rain rolling off my cheeks and wetting every strand of hair on my head and enjoying every moment of it. Not caring how others view your love......just feeling blessed that you are able to experience it.

Not all love is the same. Not all love is true. The kind of love you receive is going to be based on what you give. If you are passionate and like seeing beautiful fields of flowers on the side of the road.....and rolling down the windows to smell a warm rainy summer day...............the chances of you getting what you want out of life are much greater if your vision of love matches your partners vision of love. You don't have to be exact. You would hate each other. But you do need to have a similar interest there.

So when he says....."I love the way you love me".......it's very specific......it's a specific kind of love that he needs and she is able to give. Powerful.....and exciting that "LOVE" isn't defined by it's definition in websters. It is what we make it. So make yours lovely.

Relief..............in knowing

Ooooooooohhhhhhhh weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee - Yes, things are looking up. I have made a decision in my life, that.....get this.....IS THE RIGHT ONE AND I KNOW IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Damn that feels good. I feel a relief that I've only felt from God a few times when I begged for his mercy. Relief........what an amazing feeling. I know God gave me the strength to do this.....He has been missing being able to give me that feeling! Let me tell you a little about what I'm talking about....................

I made a decision to leave a job that I worked at for basically 4 years. In all....total, I tried to quit 5 times. FIVE TIMES!!!!!! I am weak.....have trouble saying NO!!!! But I did it. Two weeks ago....I put in my notice. It was hard. So hard. After I pulled my manager in the back and did it......I felt an instant burden lifted off my shoulders. When all of a sudden I hear, "Beth, can you come in the back real quick so I can talk to you about something?" What do I say? "Suuuuuure!"
I get in the back with my manager (and I had done so well.....meaning....no crying or anything) and tries to get me to stay......or to atleast take a couple of days and "think about it".........I started crying. I mean, why must I keep putting myself through misery?!?!?!?!?! So I told him ok..........

After he left for lunch - I emailed him and told him that I appreciate his concern and want for me to stay....but I had nothing to think about and my time with the company was done.....thank you for what you have done for me......but it's over for me.

I had gotten another job offer......and struggled back and forth on what to do. In my mind, despite how much I hated this job and the person it turned me in to.....I felt obligated to my upper boss to stay. I had quit a while back, and when I got stuck.....he hired me back and basically started giving me paychecks again. And he will honestly never know how much I appreciate that and how much he helped me.......and how sorry I am that I couldn't keep my end of the deal. But I really felt that staying at that job would be my ultimate demise.

So, I flipped and flopped back and forth......should I or shouldn't I? The story of my life.

I started my new job today......and I LOVE IT!!!!! Absolutely 100% love it. And I KNOW I made the right decision. And I KNOW that I am going to rock it.

The feeling of relief that I felt today......is hard to relate to anything in my life. It's a decision that I made on my own. A decision that I went with regardless of the battle in my mind. A decision that I am so proud of because I know it's the right one.

It's comforting to feel what a "right" decision feels like...............just ashame I haven't felt it more often.

I had an idea.........

I thought about writing a book this past weekend......about my life thus far.......I'm not sure though.....what are your thoughts?

I was going to title it "Sifting through an Unsure Life"

I don't know why I like it but it kind of sounds like - sifting - that would be me recalling a lot of my memories and putting them on paper....good and bad. Then the - unsure - thing, well, I think we all know that I am the most UNSURE person ever.

Anyway, this is a nice little project that I think I will start shortly and I know will take me forever to finish.