Do you think Road Rage is just a symptom of Rage?

Today...I felt like I was a danger to my community for getting behind the wheel of my car and driving like a bat out of hell. I'm telling you....I drove.....on people's asses the entire way home...having to tap my breaks here and there to prevent from rear ending them. Sheesh...I hate that feeling. I really couldn't believe how mad I was. I was FURIOUS....at people I don't even know....little old ladies....little old men....who were just enjoying their daily drive, trying to get from point A to point B safely, with their eyeglasses on that still have smudges from last year. That has to be a hard thing to do, and here I am running up on granny's ass...probably making her as nervous as could be.....I did that today...to several people...and now I feel bad.

But it gets me to thinking about how Road Rage comes about? Does it just ignite within you out of nowhere? Or...does it come out because you have some hidden rage? The dreaded bottled up rage. I have learned this is a brutal trait to have.....I, yes, I have it. I have the brutal bottled up rage syndrome. And....yes, maybe I have just now made this up...but I do believe it exists. Meaning that I avoid confrontations.....I get angry just like the rest of us.....I think I get angrier that the most of us.....and I think I get angry easier than some of us. But guess what I do when I get angry? I sweep it under the rug.....and I mean everything...from that gas station attendant who pissed me off so much......to fights that my husband and I may have or fights that my parents and I may have. I have been feeling so suffocated by all this anger that it has given me what is sure to be a lethal dose of anxiety. And yes I able to vent to friends about my anger sometimes.....but not being able to vent it to whoever has upset me.....puts me back in the same place I was before. I think I need to start relaying my anger when I am mad, but I don't want to lash out and say things that I really and truly don't mean....but I want to be taken seriously too when I state that something has made me angry. I hate hating something................I am going to try and focus on deep breathing exercises...........hmmmm.......yeah, yeah, I'm gonna try that.