I don't get it!

Do you know the saying, "You don't know what you have until its gone."? What's the point in that? If you don't know what you have till it's gone, where's the fun in that? It's true in all aspects of life too...we cannot predict what we do not know. And that is the future. We never know what consequences our actions will have or what would have happened if we chose another path. All we really know is that it will be different in some way. Maybe good, maybe bad....maybe equally fulfilling. But it would be different. I hate not having the answers. Not knowing the outcome of things. Not knowing what comes next. I know that flying by the seat of your pants can be exhilarating, but for me....it just doesn't work. Maybe every once in a while...but living like that? with no order? Never knowing what your next move will be? If I had to live through that forever, I'd look 80 right now instead of 27. And I'd probably have a heart attack too. I'd be a skittish old lady that wet her pants anytime someone so much as said "HI!" to her. I understand not being able to know the outcome of every decision I make, but what I want to know is how do I become comfortable in my not knowing the answers. I say, "I don't know" a lot. Sometimes I think I say it b/c I am in zombie land, and it's an automatic reply that I have myself set on. But when I mean it, how do I become comfortable with it. So, for now, what I am asking for is comfort and peace in knowing that I do not know.