Blinded..........

***Written on 2/18/08 - Just now posting***


I'm feeling very.....foggy. I am at a point in my life right now where I really have to bog down and make some decisions. And I run from having to make decisions.....I can't run any more. The mere thought of it makes my stomach turn. Do I set my feelings aside and be miserable so that another may be happy? I don't know b/c the thought of hurting another hurts me just as bad.

I am just sitting here....staring at this almost blank post....clueless as to what to say. Clueless on how to feel. All these things are going through my mind but it's not readable to me. I don't know what I'm saying.

I was in the back yard earlier today......and everything is dying...the fence is falling down......

I get so frustrated.......at the predicament I am in.......yet, I am the only one who can fix it.

I've come to realize how much I value my time......times of silence.