Oh the responsibilities..........CAIDENCE IS COMING!!!!!!

So, last night, I was on my way home from New Orleans. I struggled with even going because Paige can have Caidence any day now....and if she doesn't have her by the time the weekend is over, then Caidence will be scheduled to meet our acquaintance on Tuesday, January 23, 2007. !!!! That could be my little sweet peas birthday....awwwwww. So like I was saying, last night on my way home, I started to get emotional. I couldn't stop thinking of this little angel and what she was going to be like, what she was going to do when she grows up....will she need me??? And I'm not even the mother!!! But it's my best friends child....so it may as well be. Ahhhh, I have tears welling up in my eyes as I type this. I was thinking of all the things she will have in her life. All things I never want her to be without. I pray that she has a strong faith b/c that will get her through anything and make it somewhat easier. I pray that she finds true love in this world and is always able to see the good in people without being naive. I pray she is blessed enough to have a best friend like I have found in her mother. I know she will get her heartbroken, but I pray she is able to stick it out and keep on moving and think of it as a lesson learned. I want her to realize the importance of family. A strong family can lift you up. I want her to be HAPPY!!! I want her to take her future seriously when she's older.....but in saying that, I just mean to have ambition and goals...know what she wants. Serious in that way.....but I want her to be a silly heart. I can't wait to learn what passions she will have?? Will she like fashion? hunting? fighting for something she believes in like PETA? Will she be an artist? a musician? a dog lover? a roller coaster lover?

But last night I was emotional thinking that I always wanted to be there for her if she needed me. I want to be able to keep her safe and give her lots of love. Then the idea of this sweet little angel needing me....it was beautiful!!!

So, Caidence isn't even here yet, but I can tell that she is already going to own me. I will love her blindly....hahaha. But Paige, I promise to try and stay strong....but I'll probably cave and give her what she wants......sorry!

Huuuuuuuuury Caidence! Everyone's waiting!!!!!!! xxxooo, Bebe