Battle between the heart and mind......

I'm stuck and confused....yes, again. About the whole heart and mind thing. When I think heart....I think happy lovely thoughts.....when I think mind....I think always trying to figure out what's wrong with this picture. I don't want to be a mind person. I like actually being a heart person. It can be soothing at times. Just knowing and having that sense of happiness, that really can be enough for me.....well, it use to. My mind has been racing lately.....bringing things to my attention....telling me I have naive and gullible for ignoring it and going with my heart.

Do you think your heart tells you what you want and your mind tells you what you need? That sounds about right actually.

I am so indecisive....at the store the other day....I bought a coke and a pack a gum and the guy behind the counter asked me if I wanted a bag. A simple question. "Would you like a bag?" My mind started racing.....DO I WANT A BAG???? Uh....I dunno....ummmm, crap, do I need one? It might just end up as some other garbage in my car......I look up and he's waiting on my answer to this in depth question. I answer!!!! Finally!!! I have made a decision!! "No Sir, I would not like a bag, but thank you though"

Phew.....I thought to myself just slightly before I felt like kicking MY OWN ASS. C'mon Beth, really?

So not only do I battle in major bouts of love and war but also in everyday simple decisions. Would you like to go jump off a cliff into a sea of rocks or dive into a crisp glistening cool blue pool? Hmmmmmmmm.......I'VE GOT IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm going to make a list of all my likes and dislikes and post them so if I automatically know what I like and am comfortable with it......my decision will be made for me.......this is gonna be tough......next post.....here it goes!