What is going on.....

Alright...here's the deal. I have no idea whatsoever what I am doing. And I am terrified....so much that I have cut myself off from a lot of people. I don't even know what I am scared of.

Ugh...seriously, I can't understand myself, how can I explain to you something that I don't know.

I'm not grounded. I don't know how to deal with or face reality. Reality is somewhat harsh. To someone like me. Who is not level headed. Would believe you if you told me some ridiculous lie. I wish I weren't my biggest enemy at times.